It all happened so fast!
I am feeling Extremely down and Depressed today. No one seems to understand why i get upset over little things.
I never got over when my mother chose the some things were more important than her daughter, she hates me as does the most of the rest of the family
Eventually told my mother that I was feeling really bad, I know I can't change her and that there is no point in saying anything about it
As her daughter I needed her to show me something different. To show me how to find my way out of being stuck with something that was not making me happy. I needed her to teach me how to say and believe in my right to speak my needs, and create for myself a life that nurtured and fed me
Its hard for me to trust people
I always look for distractions, try not to be alone & don't do anything drastic. I don't isolate myself it will only allow more time for deeper thoughts that will drag me away from reality.
People tell me i have a lot to live for but i know they are just trying to be nice because i already know the thruth, they try to hide so cleverly
I have nothing to live for yet i go throughout everyday praying something good will happen.
By: garnetaki
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